February 2010
So, my team
lost today. Yeah, not good at all. We lost by so much. I’m so embarrassed to even say. cough*6-1*cough. hahahahaha But I mean, it was expected. We haven’t played as a team since October of last year. We haven’t even practiced since then! A lot of us including me, have lost all of our conditioning. Especially me, since I smoke and all. Fuck. I need to quit, for a while at least....
January 2010
None shall pass
It’s way to early to be awake. But here I am. Just had a turkish royal. Now I’m listening to some Aesop Rock. Had some weird dream. Some odd repetitive music/sounds were playing throughout my dream, even as I woke up. haha Well, gonna go now. Asalmu alaikem one love
“It hurts so many to act so real. They call me a dick and I agree. I have no soul...”
– Jonny Craig
Cigarettes,
money, Portugal. The man, and Phoenix make the world go round. Well, my world at least.(: Probably some other things too, that I can’t think of right now. But yeah. hahahahaha
Why
do people think it’s so cool to be Atheist, all of a sudden? Is it some kind of joke to go around telling people that you don’t believe in A god? Gosh, it’s so annoying. I mean, don’t get me wrong. I, myself, am atheist. But you don’t see me going around telling people that I’m atheist and that I disagree with religion and whatnot. If you ask me, that’s...
I'm so
pathetic. Why does my heart stop every time I log on myspace, and see you online? Gahh. Sucks. But it’s kind of funny at the same time. haha I want to move to Hollywood, where the girls are all pretty, and they actually have style. haha(:
I miss
You. I didn’t think I would. But I do. And I know that this is it. There’s nothing more, between us. Not even friendship. This is why I try my absolute hardest to not get close to someone or something. Because in the end, when you lose that someone/something, it hurts even more. But I can honestly say, that I’ve been done hurting, for quite some time. I just miss our...
Honey Brown
with tha long black hair, teasing me with uh kiss and uh stare. Slight touch and you takin me there. So fine and it just ain’t fair. So beautiful and so damn rare. (:
haha Here we go. Another day. Well, at least it’s Friday. Woot woooot. It’s almost time for that turkish royal. I’m just too lazy to get up. haha Gah. I have class at 9 till like 11:50. Gosh, it’s going...
Looks like
No valentine this year. :( Oh well. :T
Why does
Phoenix make me so happy? haha Like forreals. I’ve been listening to their album on repeat for a few days already. Even now. >.< I know it sounds stupid, but when I’m like walking around school or whatever, and I have phoenix playing in my ear, I feel like all confident. I don’t know. I’ve always liked them, but just recently I got all addicted to em. haha Phoenix is...
What the fuck.
I have a paper that was assigned yesterday, like around 6 p.m. and it’s due tomorrow around 4 p.m. What the fuck? haha Gahh. I need to write that shit. As soon as I get out of my math classss. :l Well, yeah.
I want a
girlfran. But I’m way too fucking picky. Like ferreally. :l Why must I attract all the DG’s? DGL fooool. :( Dirty Girl 4 Life. “It’s a gift and a curse..”
Drug free is the way to be.
haha I can’t believe I let it get out of hand. But I’m just glad that I’m clean now. Everything is so much, clearer. I’m actually happy for once. Not a generic happiness created by some stimulant. But a true genuine happiness. I’m not saying that I’m completely content 100% of the time, but I’m just relieved to be feeling REAL emotions. Yeah, just thought...
Okay, so once was enough.
I just saw some commercial, well, I heard a commercial while I was studying. And it repeated 3 times. I think it was for car insurance or something. I don’t know I just thought it was kindof weird. Subliminal messages? Possibly. haha Yeah, I know this post was pointless, but I just thought it was a bit odd. hahaha
This weather
is so peaceful. It calms me down. It takes my mind off all the chaos going on in my life. I luff it. Except when I have to go to school, and walk around in it. Not good. haha Well, ah! I have a game on Sunday, and I’m kindof really nervous. I haven’t played soccer in soo long, so I’m pretty absolutely positive that I’m out of shape. Oh well, I’m pretty excited too.(:...
Clush by Isles and Glaciers(:
How'd I end up here to begin with?
I don’t know. Why do I start what I can’t finish?
haha(; So I’m kindof really happy that I’ve been busy lately. With school and whatnot. I can no longer spend/waste my time on things not worth me spending/wasting time on. hahaha School has been pretty alright. Not great, but not horrible. I love that it’s time-consuming. But I also love that it doesn’t consume...
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Oh fuck
The internet I have at home, is tripping. :( I have to use my cellphone. And tumblroid lite, is lame, so I think I might pay for the full version. :T haha well, yeah.
And if there's a God
Then I’m letting him go. All for you. You alone. Raise my hands at the thought of you leaving me alone.
Pierce The Veil <3(:
Oh gosh.
I really don’t feel like re-following people, again, on this. hahaha(: And I really don’t feel like going to class at 4. >.> Oh well! :P
I love
my famILY(: haha Well, another day of schooool. Woot woot. Bleh(:
I love
this song so much even though it makes me way sad. I don’t know, I guess it’s just the way it sounds. But yeah..
Back and forth we always go, following the light, Over these broken cobblestones I call my life, Tell me, who’s to blame? And how many of you feel ashamed, To say you turned your back in style? I can’t wait, it’s your body taking over me, And I...
I thought
That things were going to get better. They did, for a few days. But everything’s just going down-hill. I guess, I guess this needed to happen. I need to stop being so stupid. Yeah. Well, on a lighter note, school has been going pretty good. I’m glad that didn’t procrastinate and wait another semester before I started. haha I’m really going to try my absolute best....
Why
is all this stuff happening to me? This was supposed to be my year. So far, it’s been horrible. I don’t even know what to do any more.